Pennies from Vietnam - by Tracy Smith & Larry Ray Smith (Paperback)

About the Book

"In this personal collection of 70+ letters from Vietnam, the raw honesty of one homesick teenage boy speaks for every lonely soldier at war. Huey crew chief Larry Smith grew into a hardened man in his First Cavalry helicopter while his little sister Tracy started kindergarten back in New Jersey and memorized the sounds of combat from the black and white television. This dual perspective unveils the war's invasion on the whole family as they revered every envelope and suffered alongside their hero. In December 1967, Larry turned 19 as battles intensified and his letters darkened, making his promise to return home harder to keep, or even believe. Decades after the war, as he laid in a coma, Tracy discovered her brother's letters and vowed to find Army friends he lost to uncover the whole truth of his war. She found a boy she never knew, innocent, fearful, and fearless, full of many words, then silenced. These truths offer a two-fold lesson and make the case for generational trauma in the mental health realm: children do not belong in war, nor should they watch one unfold on television."--

Book Synopsis

"It didn't matter that we were in New Jersey in 1967 and 1968. Vietnam invaded us all."

In this family story, over 70 letters from one homesick soldier tell the truth and trauma of a teenager in combat. When Larry Smith enlisted, he promised to send pennies for his little sister Tracy in his letters, and promised his mother to return home safely. But as Tracy started kindergarten and learned of war from the family television, Larry turned 19, battles intensified and his letters darkened. His promises were harder to keep.

For 12 months as a 1st Cavalry crew chief during the height of the war, Larry wrote home with tales from his latest mission on his Huey helicopter ("I never had a new car, but I do have a '67 UH-1C"). Larry grew from a naive boy ("War is hell but the girls over here sure are nice") into a hardened man. He was silenced by the end of his tour of duty, and letters stopped arriving.

Decades after the war, as her brother lay in a coma, Tracy Smith began to study the old letters and found a boy she didn't recognize. After years of research and finding her brother's Army friends, she honors him in this bittersweet story of love in the middle of war. This book is a parallel memoir, offering a unique dual perspective. In it, Larry speaks for every soldier, and Tracy speaks for those left behind, waiting for answers. The book makes a case for generational trauma: children don't belong in combat, nor should they watch it unfold on television.

Review Quotes

"Pennies from Vietnam is an immersive account of the author's brother's service in the U.S. Army's First Cavalry Division during the Vietnam War. Many veterans and military families will resonate with this story. In this moving book by Tracy Smith, Larry's revealing words help us all understand why our fathers and brothers who served in the war were challenged to discuss anything about it. Through personal letters home, the reader takes a front seat to the bravery, camaraderie, and harsh realities of war. The portrayal of combat's boredom, danger, and utter brutality, offers a raw and honest look at the soldiers' internal struggles and effects on the family. While the author doesn't shy away from the controversial aspects of the war, she pays tribute to the sacrifices of these heroes who did what their country asked of them, and the families who prayed for them."-Amy Peacock, coauthor of Old Breed General

"a poignant memoir that chronicles the emotional toll of war on a soldier and those he leaves behind. ...a thought-provoking story that explores the complexities of war and its impact on veterans and their families. The narrative is engaging and emotional, covering the social and psychological strain that the Vietnam War inflicted on American society during that era. Larry Ray Smith's letters, along with Tracy Smith's reflections, transport readers to the turbulent time of the war and remind them of the individual stories and struggles that often get overlooked in historical narratives. ...this is a must-read, offering valuable lessons about the personal and societal costs of war."-Reader's Favorite

"As a Vietnam Veteran, Pennies from Vietnam touched me on several levels. Larry's story is emblematic of the over 2 million young men and women who served our country in Vietnam. Nearly 60,000 young Americans died in that unpopular war; tens of thousands more like Larry bore the traumatic scars that eventually contributed to their untimely deaths. Although their deaths are tragic, we should give praise and thanks for their examples of selfless service which Larry exemplified. We must strive to prove ourselves worthy of their sacrifice."-Colonel Russ Olson, Citadel graduate, veteran and historian

"As the crowned Miss America, I had the privilege of connecting with the brave souls of the First Cavalry Division on my visit to the Vietnam War. Their unwavering protection and camaraderie became the cornerstone of an unforgettable chapter in my life. Yet, amidst the melodies of song and dance shared in gratitude with the soldiers, I bore witness to the harsh reality awaiting these heroes when they returned home. Pennies from Vietnam and stories like it shed light on the profound impact of war on our young people and the aftermath of trauma left in its wake."-Jane Jayroe Gamble, Miss America 1967

"I don't have the words to articulate how this story has affected me. As an active military sailor, I feel akin to Larry, unable to articulate the complexity of emotions that swirl inside. They demand expression while being denied the tools or words to do so. Know that Larry's story of silent pain is echoed in service members today and stories like his need to be told. Thank you, Tracy, for telling your brother's story so eloquently."-CTR1 Russ Sampson, U.S. Navy Active Duty

"The undercurrents from Pennies from Vietnam pull you into the life of a young man and his family who were changed by the traumas of war. Larry's letters are poignant not only because of what he said but because of what he didn't say. Let this be a reminder for all of those suffering...trauma is a creeping weed, the unattended roots of which can smother families for generations."-Dr. Holly Richmond, Ph.D. somatic psychotherapist and author of Reclaiming Pleasure

About the Author

After a career in real estate development, Tracy Smith completed broadcasting school, won a Telly Award with Naka Productions for associate producing "Moving America's Lighthouse" with Walter Cronkite, and became a freelance columnist, author, and public speaker. Living near Charlotte, NC, she continues to share her family stories and experiences with PTSD to promote healthy discussion. The late Larry Ray Smith was awarded multiple medals for bravery during two tours of duty in Vietnam, 1967-1969, with the 1st Cavalry Airmobile Division as a helicopter crew chief with the A/2/20 Blue Max unit.